I've gone through every emointion,guess,delusion,fear on here

hello been a long time since ive blogged about anything .ive had verbal tantrums ,deluisions of fears coming true,guesses to why i was feeling the way i was feeling and why was this happening to me .ive been going through this all my life it feels like .ive embarassed my family and friends by conpletely loosing it here .when it was just me and my thoughts .it was bad enough.throw a couple gangstalking bitches in ill be done right .? well its been 5 years im a little closer to getting them locked away i hope .ive got faith in humanity still even though its real hard to go through something like this .i got my wallet and phone stolen at colusa casino. this last couple months nov 2020...i got my phone back a few days after .i was so happy to have my phone back i didnt even know what was to come .my wallet was never returned .so my drivers license,cards i canceled were gone.now how is this for prepared ..ive had all my drivers licenses since i got my license never lost one yet .one year i had cdl suspended.and i got a id card good till 2023 .i put it away and forgot about it .now its a pandemic ,and everything closed .we had stay at home orders to stop te spread.